ithink i need to go into treatment .. someone help me….


please 

for my funeral ..

i wonder would you cry? sure my family would. but would you. i dont feel like you want to try and talkl to me. im trying, fuck. you like my happy i know. i wish i could be tthat girl.. but im also very unhappy 90% of the time. to catch someone just maybe glance at me i would feel important. i tell myself everynight..ok dont be annoying tonight i go through my head ” dont talk too much, but if you dont talk peole will think you’re boring, but dont make stupid of jokes but if you dont make jokes you wont be funny, i want to be funny, but dont curse too much because you’ll be so obnoxious, but dont seem like your holding back (even though you are dont make it obvious) dont sing too much, but thats the only thing you’re good at, but what if your not that good, atleast dont put that much makeup on because youll look like youre trying too much, but wear some that you look like youre trying, make people think you have firends, but they’ll push you off and wont listen to you so dont do that, vfgrjtbiirokvkjrgtwiowv io fuck i dont know who the fuck i am….who should i be today!? i dont know…im a nobody when im alone..im just a dead person listening to music  waaitn for someone to notice. why havent i killed myself yet atleast then dsomeone will listen then right? when im dead…the only time ill be thought about for more then a second. i feel dead. i feel fake. what would you say about my death. oh thats a shame..anyway my lifes perfect …… i want someone to cvare about me…..no one willll

im so incredibly unhappy….i need someone to be close with me again…i need attention to say the least. 

im just not lovable. she was accepted by this stupid group. the shit i went through and i took her like 3 months? like oh… ill never be the one to call, the one to text, the one to take a walk with, the one thats “always there for me”, the one that people will go to when they have a problem, just that stupid shit. and you got it. this is why i think everyone hates me. i feel no fucking love. please think about how i feel please. understand how i fucking feel. to feel no love in my heart. just to have one person to give me that attention, i feel so warm. im cold. im a bitch. why? because why should i feel happy if no one will share my happiness with me. remember no family. no boyfriend. no one likes me. no one talks to me. ever. im alone… I WANT TO DIE. im so fucking empty. sorry kyle i cant just feel happy about life. because your life is too perfect for you to feel one fucking little sorrow. FEEL SOMETHING. UNDERSTAND PEOPLES LIVES DONT LEAVE THEM LIKE THEY SHOULD DIE.  this isnt even about him..hes just annoying. they’re all annoying. 

lets diee tonighhhhhttttt

:/

stop stop stop stop. youre soooo doing the same thing…lol its so funny too because you look stupid doing it.